In my mirror, who is this person that I see? I do not know this person. As I stare closely into the gleaming mirror, I recognize that the reflection is a REVERSED IMAGE of me. I am smiling but truthfully, I am dying inside. Don’t judge me! I have accepted my fate of the things in my life that I cannot control. Even so, I still struggle to prepare myself for the day that lies ahead. Oh my gosh! I try to tell myself that I am okay. Girl put on your clown face. Cover up your sadness and grief, be who the world expects to see. Sadly, in order to get along and to be accepted, I try to be as others expect me to be (i.e., warrior, positive, strong, brave, complete, carefree). That image is not a true reflection of me. Suffocating in a blanket of lies and deceit, what a Pretty Little Liar I have grown to be. Lights, Camera, Action! The curtains open. As the dawn breaks, I now have to pretend that everything is okay. A chameleon that is the role I play-each and every single day. Academy Award for the Best Actress in a Leading Role in the screenplay, “Her Life.”
This life has become so overwhelming. Dancing and casting deeply in pain and pretending that the world is at my feet. Honestly, I am a mess, and my faith has been put-to-the-test. I just want someone to save me. Oh, please please fix me -emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. Can’t anyone see that everything around me is crumbling down? What a Pretty Little Liar I have grown to be. Take a Bow!
May is mental health awareness month. Give yourself compassion and the freedom to be vulnerable.
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